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on our way home with Isaac. exhausted. but happy.
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how is it that tiny little guy can pee soooo much? we have already lost 3 outfits because of the pee. at this rate, we’ll have to find a laundry mat tomorrow or buy new clothes.
sure glad I ignored daddyo when he griped about me buying 4 outfits at walmart!
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I can’t remember the last time I was this happy to be up at four am! this little guy is just adorable and reminds me already of princess’ sweet disposition.
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as I write, my youngest son is sleeping on my lap. he is almost ready to eat and I can’t wait bc daddy fed him earlier.
right now, we are his foster parents. Please pray that the judge is this case comes down hard on the birthparents and chooses to fasttrack his case.
we should be able to take him home tomorrow. pray the judge okays it – it is supposed to happen.
we need to get med records and such.
pray for God’s divine intervention to continue for this child.
by the way, I got to hold my baby tonight.
one last thing: pls pray for speedy and princess as they adjust to having a baby brother.
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We met baby Isaac about 8pm tonight and he is so tiny. My first thoughts when I took him from the worker’s arms were…. finally. You are finally where you belong. It was a sigh of relief. He was hungry but still didn’t fuss much. We talked with the worker, got a little more information and signed some papers.
Then we brought him upstairs and daddyo gave him a bottle. I got to give him a bath and clip his nails and then rock him to sleep. I still haven’t really heard him cry. He is perfect. 10 fingers. 10 toes. And he is sleeping peacefully in the port a crib right now.
It’s not overwhelming. It’s not even thrilling – I know that sounds strange. I was so nervous and excited to meet him, I though I’d be overwhelmed with emotion when I did. But I wasn’t. It just felt….right. There is no better word. It’s just right. He’s where he belongs.
Thank you, Jesus.
I have pictures but I can’t post them here just yet. Those of you who have left comments with your email address (in the space provided, not in the actual comment) will get one shortly. It’s from my cell because I can’t seem to make the sd card work on the laptop, but it’s a picture.
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bought:
diaper bag
diapers
wipes
alcohol swabs
bath stuff
bibs
clothes
blanket
another blanket
bottles
formula
pacifier
think that is it.
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almost to NB. going to walmart then to hotel to meet worker, sign papers and get baby.
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It hardly seems real. We are in the truck now and heading to get our boy. God is so good. Now that baby is safe, please pray he stays that way. Pray he remains in our custody forever and that the judge decides to fasttrack his case. We’ll be spending the night in New Braunfels tonight and are hoping they have a 24 hour walmart or target so we can get diapers, bottles, etc.
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We are leaving to go pick him up!!!!!!!!!!!
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We think the biggest issue right now is that the caseworkers there don’t want to drive all the way here to make a placement and that’s what would have to happen. There will be a hearing within 14 days where the judge will be asked about placing with us. We have the siblings so in their eyes we are family. They should be trying to place with family first. We need God to intervene.
Please pray.
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Agency rules dictate baby should be placed in their county first.
We need God’s intervention to get him here.
PRAY!
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You know, before I made a phone call today, I asked God to open doors if this was a direction I needed to take. Boy, did he open doors. The investigative worker called me and gave me information that I should not be posting publicly… so I won’t. BUT, depending on the outcome of some tests, it is possible that baby will be removed today. There are also some test results that should be in tomorrow, and so it is possible that baby could be removed then, if not today.
Regardless of what happens today or tomorrow, I am confident that this lady (my new hero) is going to stay on them like white on rice.
Keep those prayers coming, God hears them. He is listening and He is responding.
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Ha! I called a CPS office in the region where birthparents are and got through to someone. Woo HOO! This person gave me the office and CELL phone number of the investigator’s supervisor. She didn’t know who the caseworker was on the file. So, I called the supervisor and she answered her phone.If you’ve never interacted with CPS, you have no idea how rare it is to actually get in touch with someone. Anyway, she seemed VERY surprised that I had her cell phone number. I was shocked that the lady I talked to gave it to me.
She wasn’t in her office but said she’d call me back after lunch with the name of the actual person working this case.
What am I going to tell this person? Everything I know about birthparents. They have the file from before, but you would be suprised at how inaccurate that file can be.
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I have gotten so many emails, comments and phone calls. I so appreciate all of your support and love and mostly your prayers. Thank you for lifting us up and thank you for lifting up baby Isaac. God promises us a peace that passes all understanding, but He doesn’t promise that we won’t have pain along the way. I just keep imagining that sweet baby in my arms and on my chest. And I can’t help but think what may happen if birthmom gets too high or not high enough or just too frustrated with the crying.
It’s funny, I thought I had done everything I could possibly do and so I even told the caseworker today that I don’t feel lthere is more we can do but wait. Then I got a call from a dear friend tonight who is very involved in the adoption/foster care world and she told me a story of paperwork and lost paperwork and many, many phone calls to keep workers on top of it. At the end, before I told her that I had decided there really wasn’t more I could do, she said to me, “keep on it, Cindy. Stay on top of them and keep after it. Don’t stop. Don’t give up.”
So I’m praying for God’s wisdom. I think the last thing I can really do is call the investigative worker – whom I do not have a name for so I’ll have to do some digging. If I can talk to that person, maybe I can get more information. Or give more information. Sigh. We’ll just see what tomorrow brings. Please pray that God will give me clarity and wisdom about what to do next. I’d really like to hire a private investigator but I think that may be crossing a line. Ha ha ha 
Don’t worry, I am only kidding. Sort of.
I am okay. Really. God is taking good care of me and I do trust His plan and His ways. He is enough for me.
OH, and PS…. the search word that brings the most hits to my site is STILL diarrhea. What is UP with that?
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Just ick. ick. ick. ick. ick.
God, send an army of angels to protect this baby.
For about nine months, I have been praying for baby Isaac. (again, not his name but something Speedy came up with a long time ago) When I first heard the news that bm was pregnant, I had prayed only a day or two, maybe three before that if God didn’t want us to have more children….. that He would take away that desire from heart. I had been aching for another baby but really didn’t think it would happen. So I asked God to remove that desire. Then I found out that bm was pregnant again and I remember thinkin, “okay, God, this is not doing anything to remove that desire from my heart…”
I began to pray, we began to pray from the very beginning. We prayed for God’s protection on this child. We prayed that bm would make better choices this time around. And i began to love this child while he was still in his mother’s womb. As God was knitting him together, we were praying and also preparing. I remember making a concious decision to plan for that child and allow myself to love him even though nothing was certain. While we began to prepare for another child, we also prayed that the birthparents would get it together. We had no idea what would happen.
When we were told that the due date was the same as our birthday (yes, daddyo and I have the same birthday), it was hard not to look at that as a sign that we better really start preparing. I know it’s crazy. To count so much on another person’s child becoming your own – not by her intention but by her choices. It’s unrealistic to put my heart on the line when I had no way of knowing what would happen. It’s just that I didn’t want to miss one day of loving this baby. If he does become mine, I want to know that I loved him from the very beginning – I didn’t hold back in fear.
And what if the unthinkable happens? What if this child and this family slips through the cracks of CPS? What will I have lost from loving compared to what I will have gained? I know I have done all that I can to intervene on behalf of this child and I believe with all my heart that without the information I was given and passed along to others, this baby would be at an even greater risk because no one would be looking out for him.
I still can’t be sure about what will happen, but one thing I do know is that God’s hands are in this. I don’t always understand His ways but I trust His character. I trust His heart. And I want whatever it is that He has for me. And I don’t know how people who don’t have a relationship with Jesus make it through difficult times. I don’t know what they hold on to. Because I’m not going to lie to you and tell you that I have no fear and no worry and that my heart doesn’t break every second that baby Isaac is away from me. My arms ache almost as much as my heart does.
But I’m telling you that I am filled with peace. Scripture after scripture comes to mind when i pray and I know that God is right here with me. I feel His grace covering me with every step…with every breath. And I know that His heart is aching right along with mine. I trust Him with my life. I trust Him with my heart. His love truly does endure forever. My ways are not His ways and believe me, friend, His ways are ALWAYS better. Why do we work so hard to hang on to our misery? It sucks the life out of us when we worry and are anxious and we fight to keep whatever it is that has that hold on us. God can do so much more with us, in us and through us when our hearts are free from worry and fear. I have no idea what will happen tomorrow. I have no idea if I’ll ever even meet baby Isaac. And I am okay with that. I’m okay with not knowing (not the same as liking it…). Because at the end of the day I have absolutely no control over it.
In the midst of all the craziness in my life right now, I am free. Christ died and set me free.
“Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
Amazing Love, now flowing down
from hands and feet
that were nailed to the tree
He Grace flows down and covers me
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This afternoon, I finally got the call and was able to drop everything and head out to bring home what I’ve been waiting for.
My brand new Nintendo Wii.
I know, that was really, really mean of me but hey, welcome to the ups and downs of MY life.
A week or so ago when I was playing Bunco or Bunko (i can’t remember) with the girls, we got on the subject of computers and geeky stuff and video games. Most of the ladies could do without video games and would rather their husbands not spend so much time with them – it’s the opposite at my house. Daddyo will soon be frustrated with having to watch tv in the bedroom so I can play Wii in the den.
Hey, I need some distraction right now. (cause having two small kids isn’t a distraction?)
By the way, Speedy is learning to dive. He actually did a great dive today but I think it was on accident. Tomorrow is his last day of swim lessons and I’m very sad about that – have I mentioned that his instructor is HOT? I mean, wow…. WOW… hot. He’s barely legal so it’s gross to even say it but man… WoW. Daddyo keeps accusing me of finding other people to come and take lessons just I can keep watching. Maybe I’ll post a picture and let you be the judge.
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Well, I just talked to the supervisor who was in charge of the case for Speedy and Princess. She is also going to follow up and hopefully get in touch with the investigator in the other region.
There is absolutely NOTHING else I can do.
We’re at a wait and see and pray.
Overheard in the Ebenezer house:
Princess: I bwoke my mouth
Speedy: Is that the biggest truck you never seen?
I know. I know. Not terribly exciting but something different from the usual these days.
I kept waiting and waiting for baby to be born. I just knew CPS would immediately take custody and we’d be on our way to bringing baby home. I thought the waiting would be over once baby was born. HA! Shows me, huh? I really think God just knows how much I like to wait.
Waiting is hard. Especially when I can’t be certain of the outcome. One thing I am certain of is that Christ is in control. That He has a plan for me and for this baby boy (Jeremiah 29:11). And that His love endures forever. I do not know His plans, but I do know His character…. His heart. That is something I can trust – no matter what.
In Isaiah 55:8-11, God says,
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the LORD.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
I know some of you are waiting for the private posts and just can’t wait to see what juicy things I have to say. I hate to disappoint you but 1)i really don’t have anything juicy to say, just want to be careful of what I’m writing with regard to CPS and 2) I can’t get the dang thing to work right.
There really aren’t any more updates. I feel more confident that CPS will take custody once they have built a case that will stand up in court. I pray it does not take them long and that this case doesn’t fall through the cracks.
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…..if anyone asks you to go see the stupid movie Zohan. DUMB! DUMB! DUMB!!!!!!!!
No other updates. It may be a week or so. Pray that it isn’t too much longer….I am ready to bring this baby home where he belongs.
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Investigation still open. It may take a week or so…..they may be giving birthmom enough rope to hang herself. test her again in a few days…….
feeling hopeful.
keep in mind….CPS must have enough evidence to make a case in court.
I’ve gotten lots of requests for passwords, etc… I will get all of that done later today, I promise. Maybe tonight. I’m taking a day off for myself and hopefully Daddyo will get off work super early and we’re going to goof off. We’ll be going to dinner tonight and maybe even a movie. I’ll be running around all day and not in front of the computer but will update the blog if I hear anything.
My caseworker is going to try to get in touch with the CPS workers in that area and see if she can figure out what’s going on.
Stay tuned.
I promise not to post anything “secure” until you guys all have your passwords and log ins, etc…..
My public awaits… ha ha ha
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I’m about to have to take some of these posts to a more private level. If you have a username and password, consider logging in to read for a while. If you’ve lost it, leave me a comment and be sure to enter your email so i can get back in touch with you. Don’t worry, your email address is not displayed for anyone else to see.
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To the best of my knowledge, birthmom is still in the hospital. It seems a little strange to me because on Medicaid, they usually get in and out pretty quick. Usually, not more than one night. She has already stayed two nights.
I know my updating is way more frequent than it has been in the last year – but come on, there’s a lot going on right now.
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To all of you dad’s who are more than sperm donors. 
Waiting has never been easy for me. Go figure. It’s the not knowing that is the hardest part. I am ready to accept whatever comes…..I am just ready for it to come. It’s the not knowing that sucks.
And whatever I am feeling is nothing. It means nothing. It isn’t about me – it’s about an innocent little life.
Sigh. Lord, let this all be over soon. Tomorrow would fantastic. The best birthday I can imagine is bringing home baby. The second best is just knowing it is over.
What stinks is that if CPS does not take custody, this could drag on forever. Years. Although I hope and pray the birthparents are getting it together, if history is the best measure of the future then this child will eventually come into custody.
I can hardly stand to think of this baby living for any amount of time in the situation Speedy lived in for two years. If not for the birth of his sister, he might still be there.
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so I’m just now figuring out how to post frm my cell phone. I know, u r just thrilled that I may be posting more often noe. it is important that u know where I am every second, right? ha ga ha .
I am at the salon getting my hair done. talked Daddyo into staying home with the kids – woo hoo.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this whole expwrience and I need to vent. or explain. or just document for the book I will write one day. or not.
I know there is another perspective to be considered but right now I’d like to look at this from my own perspective. for nine months now, I have prayed for this baby and wondered whether or not we’d be adding to our family. I have been excited and then doubtful and then excited once again. going through the ups and downs of wondering if we’ll parent this child.
I want what is best for this child. it isn’t a matter of who can provide more or give a “better” life. it is about this baby being safe.
I believe everyone deserves a second chance. even a third. But what about the baby’s chance? If birthparents can get their life together and care for a child, THAT IS FANTASTIC. But moving a few weeks ago from the SAME environment they have been in for years does not prove a changed life. So give them a chance to prove it. Put baby in a safe environment while birthparents work a service plan and get drug counseling and display some stability.
Let them demonstrate their desire and ability to care for a child. Not just talk about it.
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CPS is definitely investigating.
Pray for wisdom and disernment.
Pray for peace for birthfamily.
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Took the kids to the zoo this morning – way too hot to be outside.
No news. Probably won’t hear anything more until tomorrow, if then.
A little anxious, but trusting God with the outcome.
I’m just ready to know what is going to happen. I’m fine either way – God is Sovereign and He knows what is best. I trust His plan and want only His plan. It’s just the not knowing that kills me.
A lesson in patience I’d rather not have.
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The ups and downs of all of this are excrutiating!
AAAHHHGGHH!
Who knows what will happen at this point.
I just want this baby to be safe. I just need this baby to be safe.
