My Ebenezer

It’s getting late and I’m in one of those moods so it looks like tonight may be a post-a-thon!

You must be getting tired of hearing me write about how much God is teaching me through my kids but it just never gets old – there is a new lesson every day. I think I struggled to understand God’s love for me a lot when I was growing up and even as an adult. I didn’t have a father actively participating in my life and demonstronating unconditional love for me and that often left me feeling unworthy of that love. Although my mom was incredible, I believe there is something special about a dad’s love that God uses to show us His love. I don’t know.

Anyway, since having Princess and Speedy I hear God’s whisper in my heart almost daily, “see, that’s how I love you…that much and more…” Daddy and Speedy went out for a bit this afternoon and I was hanging out with Princess. I just enjoyed spending some one on one time with her, even though we weren’t doing anything special. I tried to get her to talk and when she would repeat a new word I was so happy and we’d both just giggle. And I thought how much I love just being with her (Speedy, too) and how much I love when she just crawls over and gives me random hugs and wants to love on me a bit. And it’s like God was saying, “I like that, too.” I know He gets as much pleasure when we just spend time with Him, one on one, even if we aren’t doing anything special. I know He is thrilled when we just “love on Him” for a while for no special reason. And when He sees us learning something new I know He is just as thrilled as I am when I watch Princess.

There is a yearning in my heart to just be with my kids – not out of a need but out of a deep love. I believe God has that same yearning to be with us.

I learn something new every day. Look at your kids and spend a minute thinking about how much you adore them. Now multiply that times a gillion. That’s how much God loves you.