My Ebenezer

I don’t know if I’ll sleep tonight or night, I’m very excited about tomorrow. Our case worker from CPS came out today and she is confident that TPR will be granted. Of course, she throws in the disclaimer that anything COULD happen, but she expects to get termination.

What I worry about the most is seeing BM and BF. I feel like a coward because I don’t want to face them, but I guess I’m not a coward because wild horses couldn’t keep me from that courtroom. I don’t know if they will really be there or not but I do know that if they are there, they will want to talk to us. That could go either way, my friends.

They’ve been very nice, for the most part, all along but things have definitely changed a bit. I’m hoping that they know how much we love the kids and that they are as glad as they can be that they at least know who will have them. Maybe I’m asking for too much. I still pray they will voluntarily sign over their rights so that I can tell Princess and Speedy some day that their birthparents loved them enough to do what was best for them in the end.

We’ll be if termination is granted but then we’ll have to call Granny J and tell her about it. That will be a bittersweet for both of us. I know she’ll be glad the kids are safe and sound and in a better place, but I can’t imagine what it must be like to watch your son lose custody of his children. I don’t know.

Believe me, we’ll be celebrating. We may even go pick Speedy up from MDO early just so we can all be together. We’re going to celebrate either way tomorrow because we believe God is in control.

And don’t worry, I’ll be by to post the outcome as soon as we get home.