My Ebenezer

Yes, yes, I know. Updates aren't as frequent because they've just gotten a little boring lately. I can't write about every funny thing Speedy does or I'd be here writing instead of enjoying him all day long.

It still amazes me how much our lives have changed in so short a period of time. I never knew I could love like this. It's just so different from anything else and I guess you can't understand it until you are in the middle of it.

People continue to ask us about the future and about whether or not we'll get to "keep" Speedy and Princess. It is a constant reminder that there is a possibility that we could lose them. Sometimes I wish people would just quit asking me. I mean, if I know something new I promise I'll tell you. I guess I just get frustrated at constantly having to explain it. People may as well just say to me, "Hey, those aren't REALLY your kids, remember?" LOL, thanks for THAT reminder!

God has given us a peace about the situation. We trust that He is in control and He is going to provide, as He always has. I'd be lying if I told you I didn't have my moments of panic – when I watch my babies sleeping, when I hold them close and smell the tops of their heads. Mainly though, the time that I am most likely to have doubts is when people ask me about it. I know that's wierd, but it's how it works for me. I find myself trying to explain it away when all I really want to do is say, "we're trusting God and you should too." But that's kinda harsh.

Parenting is different than we expected. More on that later.